I had one New Year's Resolution at the start of 2012, focus a little bit on me. This had many individual components to it, so many things about me I needed to improve. Over the last ten years or so my attention has been on my husband and 4 children. While I absolutely love being a mom and wife, it's amazing what happens when you neglect yourself. I am, in my opinion, the definition of "letting yourself go." My goal this year is to pay more attention to me. It may sound selfish to some, but I think if I am happier with me it will spread to my family. I want to be able to focus on me without taking away attention from my family. This means using my "spare time" more wisely. I say "spare time" in quotations because really, what is that? I am not one that you would call lazy, but when it has come to taking care of myself I have become lazy. I'll admit that instead of my bedtime routine consisting of washing my face, using lotion, brushing my teeth etc., it's usually get the kids to bed and pass out as soon as my head hits the pillow. The healthy meals I plan on eating are replaced by whatever is easiest to grab and eat, that is if I even eat a specified meal on any given day. I have stopped making time for spiritual progression and I miss that feeling of being close enough to hear that divine whispering. I used to never miss a night of prayer and scripture study, and even when I try now days it seems I fall asleep before I get to the 2nd verse of the st chapter. My overall health and my spirituality are two of the main goals I wanted to focus on this year. The third is my finances. We have had some set backs over the last few years with medical bills and my husbands unemployment, but if I was better at budgeting and keeping track of my spending we could be leaps and bounds ahead of where we are now.
I broke down these three areas at the beginning of the year into smaller steps to help me get to where I want to be and while I think about these areas multiple times per day and I have made some effort, I haven't been as focused as I could have been. While I have made progress in all of these areas I think I could have done and could be doing better. So, this is my Mid-Year's resolution. To get refocused and re-motivated and achieve my goals.
1. Becoming healthier.
While I am hoping this includes losing about 20 lbs., my main focus is overall physical and
mental health.
2. Increase my spirituality.
I want to feel more in-tune with the spirit and be able to hear the inspiration coming from our
Father in Heaven. I want to feel the love for the gospel and the burning of my testimony that I
have felt before.
3. Improve my financial situation
I need to budget every month and cut back on unnecessary spending. I need to save up some
money for our future. I need to cut out the stress of debt.
So, as I sit here and finish off a bag of chocolate twizzlers at 1am, I am rededicating myself to my New Year's resolution. Wish me luck!
